Life's unimaginable turns and twists may be a welcoming sign
One should enjoy life's precious moments...
Mommy went into the hospital Sunday afternoon and I wasn't notified until Sunday night. I'm wondering what was happening to my family's minds not telling me right away...uuhhmm... Mommy had a minor attack of some sort of nerve thingy. Not a heart attack (so that's what the doctor said anyway..) but a nerve attack brought on by high blood pressure, high glucose blood level and diabetes. Are all these things hereditary? Because this was the first I have ever heard of being diagnosed in my family.
The past five nights were spent sleeping in the hospital. Not so bad but because the air conditioner had to be set a little cooler because of mom which was not at all offending... The only thing that really got to me was: Seeing Mommy physically for the first time so vulnerable and so fragile. It was almost being next to some stranger I didn't even know.
I cried silently while she slept peacefully. I shed tears because I was scared. Frightened of what tomorrow would bring. Will she be taken from me now? I hadn't thought about this and for the first time panic and remorse filled my heart.
Memories ran through my mind as I thought about all the things I hadn't said or done for her. All the things I wanted her to have and enjoy in life because she deserved them. Bringing up children as a single mom is life's real challenge and of all the people who deserve the award it should be her. I couldn't imagine life without her. She always wanted the best for us children that was her love for us. Forever worrying and frequently wondering about her children's future the role of mother had never stopped. I told her what would I do without her. She replied, "I cannot leave you yet for I worry about you." A warm tinge raced to my heart as I fought back some tears from my eyes. That was all I needed. Life should be full of twists and turns to let you know the reality of the true meaning of Love.
Mommy returned home today and I was happy for all. Not because she had fought and won but I have learned for the better. Take life's precious momments and not waste them. Remember them with all your heart because these are the things you can take with you, not the million-dollar house or the new sports car. These beautiful memmories are yours alone and no one can take them away from you. This is life's wealth.
